life is beautiful

La Vita ē Bella'

 A thought rushed into me !The life i lived all this while, the discrimination i've been thru all this while, the people i've met who use to be the precious one in my life who actually taught me that TIME CHANGES SO DO THEY. Through out the whole journey, learning was the key of my life as i grew to know the surrounding and to be matured not physically but mentally !

I've always thought that people we love will be there regardless what happens but i was assuredly  wrong about it as time moved on. Having a big circle of friends was important to me back then as i thought they will be there in my hardest time eventually i was wrong! I'm never the person who neglected someone close to me as i treasure the relationship but in my own eyes i saw people changing when they had someone else to share their good and bad times with. I once walked up to my mum and asked her why is this even happening and she told me this one thing that sticked into my mind since then "Life is beautiful, we meet millions of people in our life but not everyone stays so treasure those who is still with you as the circle goes small you will know who was there in your hardest and lowest ". It became small as times goes on and i'm blessed that i have a few of them who still motivates and counts on me on their daily life even if it's not physically.

Growing up to be the person i am today isn't easy as well as people discriminate me at times. Well as i started working after my high school, majority of my family members was forcing me to pursue my studies as i was young and the sayings went like "people will look down at you if you had no education and that is going to be a big humiliation to your parents" as I’ve said i had my own reason of why i dropped my studies and started working but well i can't be telling the world the reasons as well as it's something personal to me, I knew there was something better awaiting me out this world and i definitely proved them wrong at this point by not living under my parents earning but my own earning at the age of 22.

A sudden thought of him rushed into my thought. I smiled and realize that he was a soulmate of mine who thought me a great lesson and walked away without a shadow that can be seen forever. Loving him was the best thing even when he walked away as he wanted and came back only when he needed something from me. I was high on love like someone who was high on drug who gets addicted and aggressive when they don't get what they want so was i. Years went by and truth was being reviled not by himself but god, he showed me the real man i was in love with and i was given a choice to choose him or walk away looking for my happiness so did i choose to see the happiness in me. He definitely was the reason of why i lost faith and trust in love at some point of my life and it definitely took some time ( 2 years ) to get over him as he kept coming back even after everything ended yet he definitely tried his luck to get back but the saying goes "the more chances you give someone the less respect they'll start to have for you. They'll begin to ignore the standards that you've set because they'll know another chance will always been given. They're not afraid to lose you because they know no matter what, you wont walk away. They get comfortable with depending on your forgiveness. Never let a person get comfortable disrespecting you" - Trent Shelton . So for once in my life i stand up for myself and pushed him far away from my eye side for my own good.

Well life wasn't any easy as it took soo much of self-effort for me to be the person i am today but i'm blessed that i have a bunch of people who actually takes good care of me and supports me in everything regardless what issue it is and words are never enough to thank them. Thank you to those who looked down at me, who back-stabbed me, who humiliated me in a crowd of people and a huge thanks to the person i thought who will be everything to me , who i count on everytime even when i know he wasn't going to be bothered. Guess without all this negative people in my life i wouldn't have came this far in my life and be the person i am now. Cheers to all those Young, Bold, Wise people i've met in my life and cheers to many more years of growing old and wiser with those who wish to be a part of my beautiful life.

Love,

 Abherrami Suresh Kumar